A few realisations I’ve had over the past, relatively crappy week.
My friends aren’t coming back - Out of my 11 closest male friends, only two still live in Perth. I’ve been living like they are going to be back soon and thus not really investing a lot of energy into developing long-lasting, new friendships. But they aren’t coming back.
Drama is a state of mind - I’ve been sucked into a world with people who are overly emotional. I’m all for emotions, but sometimes you got to take a step back and realise how petty it all is in the grand scheme of things.
I need a passion - I’ve let my photography slip and I’ve stopped dedicating time to my other passions and instead my energy has gone into university and emotional crap. As a result I’ve slipped into this stagnant, day-to-day survival mode and fuck, it’s boring.
I need adventure - I crave new experiences and new places, but I’m too poor to travel anywhere at the moment. Thank science that teachers get 12 weeks holidays.
“When my husband died, because he was so famous and known for not being a believer, many people would come up to me — it still sometimes happens — and ask me if Carl changed at the end and converted to a belief in an afterlife. They also frequently ask me if I think I will see him again. Carl faced his death with unflagging courage and never sought refuge in illusions. The tragedy was that we knew we would never see each other again. I don’t ever expect to be reunited with Carl. But, the great thing is that when we were together, for nearly twenty years, we lived with a vivid appreciation of how brief and precious life is. We never trivialized the meaning of death by pretending it was anything other than a final parting. Every single moment that we were alive and we were together was miraculous — not miraculous in the sense of inexplicable or supernatural. We knew we were beneficiaries of chance […]. That pure chance could be so generous and so kind […]. That we could find each other, as Carl wrote so beautifully in Cosmos, you know, in the vastness of space and the immensity of time […]. That we could be together for twenty years. That is something which sustains me and it’s much more meaningful […]. The way he treated me and the way I treated him, the way we took care of each other and our family, while he lived. That is so much more important than the idea I will see him someday. I don’t think I’ll ever see Carl again. But I saw him. We saw each other. We found each other in the cosmos, and that was wonderful.”—
Ann Druyan, on her husband Carl Sagan (via gadgetry)